Today is her birthday!

My friend A is 39 today.  They are bringing her home from the hospital to live the remaining weeks of her life at home.  Weeks!  I can not even begin to imagine what she is going through or her parents.  I find myself filling up with tears and getting emotional when I think of her, which right now seems to be all the time.  I text my husband and asked if we could go out for food / drinks tonight.  I guess because I feel like we should be celebrating A's birthday.  If she were well then we would definitely have been doing something.  Our group of close girl friends always go out and celebrate birthdays.  Never anything extravagant  just a meal and drinks and good old girl chat.

I logged in to fb to wish a happy birthday then got to read all the posts to her.  I cried and had to stop reading. I will look again tonight when I am at home.  My eyes have just filled with tears thinking about it.

My other friend V is having her specialist appointment today.  We found out Monday that she also has cancer, which is stage 3.  I guess we just have to wait and see how things turn out for her.  I am hoping our group doesn't lose two great people in quick succession.

Okay enough of that before I really do burst in to tears right here at my desk in work!

It was wi last night and although it really doesn't seem that important at this very moment I lost another 0.5lb.  I am running for 25 minutes non stop and come June 24th I will be running for my two amazing friends.