Thursday, 26 January 2012

Weigh In Wednesday!

I was sure I hit post on this last night but as it didn't post I guess I was mistaken!

And I have a smile on my face. I finally cracked the 3 stone barrier (14lb = 1stone). I really thought I would never get here.  With a 2lb loss this week it gets me to 42.5lb's gone forever.  42lb has been a target of mine for at least two months (maybe more) so now I have to choose a new small goal.

With 50lb within my reach that is now my next weight loss goal.

I am hoping to get that in 5 weeks time.  So when I go to weigh in on Wednesday February 29th (leap year!) a great date I will hopefully have reached my next big milestone.  50lb just so happens to also be a total of 20% weight loss.

I am definitely not putting a whole lot of pressure on myself with the time line as I have done that in the past and all sorts of things go wrong when I set myself targets and don't achieve them.  So five weeks is more of a guideline than a deadline.

I hope everyone else who is on a weight loss journey of their own is hanging in there.  I am sure your losses are amazing!

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

It is tougher than I thought!

Keeping up with commenting.  Normally I read and run.  I know I know I really should try and comment more which was why I joined in this month's ICLW.  By the time I have done a full days work, read all the blogs, read parts of my book, watch tv, cook dinner and spend some time with DH and general stuff around the house the commenting part doesn't happen.

Plus I like to try and say something to help support or encourage.  I do not like to just leave some meaningless note.  Another problem I seem to have though is memory loss.  Seriously, I get to the end of a blog post and I have to read it again to pick out the parts I wanted to comment on.  I seem to struggle with this a lot!

Anyone have any tips on improving memory?

I have so many thoughts and things to do buzzing around my head that I forgot most of them.  I know that there are a few things I need to post about.  Tomorrow in work I am going to get a good old fashioned pen and paper and make some notes.  Notes for posts and for other stuff.  Maybe just maybe I will get most things done as it will be in black and white and I can cross them off as they are achieved.


It is weigh in Wednesday tomorrow I always sneaky peak at home and the scales look like they are going in the right direction.  I guess I will just have to be patient and wait until tomorrow evening when the official weigh in happens.  

It is late 23:18 and I have been trying to catch up on reading blogs (taking a little longer as due to ICLW I now have more of you I follow :0) )  that's a good thing though.  I think I have just one more comment to leave.  Although it is almost midnight for me I could get a head start on tomorrow's comments.  Who am I kidding I will be fast asleep by the time midnight gets here!!

If you are dropping in from ICLW then hello to you and if I haven't left a comment on your blog leave a link in my comment section and I will stop by.  It might take a while but I will get there.

Right well time to switch this laptop off and get some sleep.  Good night all x

Sunday, 22 January 2012

Discharged from my specialist

I am confused by the fact that my specialist discharged me. I still have severe endo and will be having major surgery in the future. They have told me they will need a bowel and bladder specialist for the surgery if and when we decide to go ahead.

The reason for the discharge was the fact that for now they can't do anything for me. I get my pain meds from my GP. I am 13 months in to the IVF waiting list which means I should reach the top anytime from June.

If the IVF works or not I will still need surgery to sort out my messed up ovaries, tubes and bowel. So this means I now have to start the process all over again. It just seems like I have to fight for everything. Some days I just don't have the energy to fight and I shouldn't have to.

Why could I not just stay on the specialists lists without having a 6 monthly check up?

As I am out of area how do I get my GP to refer me to the doctor I need to see?

I am trying to forget about the issues that this will cause as for now it is not an issue. Sometime down the line it will be but for now I need to forget it relax and concentrate on the IVF.

I still have 28lbs to lose before that can go ahead. That is something that needs dealing with now and what I am trying to concentrate on getting done.

Wednesday, 4 January 2012

Weigh In Wednesday

My first post of 2012.  I hope every one of you had a good New Year!

I was nervous after a small 0.5lb loss Christmas week I felt that the week over New Year was actually harder.  I wanted to eat the chocolates and we had lots of other goodies in the house pringles and chocolate fingers and cake!  I did eat a little of everything but tried very hard to limit how much I had.

I guess treating myself but staying aware of how much I was having paid off once again!

Another 0.5lb loss!

Besides the weight loss my body is also playing games with me this month.  I have had no sign of ovulation and I am CD19 today.  I have had pains today that made me think that maybe I was ovulating today but I had no line on my OPK.  The pain was pretty bad for about an hour.  It was around my left ovary and those awful contraction type pains that ripple across my abdomen.  That is the pain I do not want to come back.  At it's worst (almost 4 years ago now) my husband once asked me if I was sure I wasn't in labour.  Seriously if I was able to breathe at the time I may just have killed him.

Let's wait and see how aunt flo treats me in 9 days time.  I am a little nervous I am due a rough month.  Isn't it awful that we prepare for a bad month!  I have had 2 months where I was in pain and uncomfortable but managed with paracetamol and lidocaine pain patches.  I also made it to work every day although my boss always comments on when I am ill I guess I must look like hell.