Endo doesn't know

it is my birthday today and decided that it would be the best day of the year for me to be in the most pain I have in a long time!

I have done my best to put a smile on my face and pretend I am fine.  The level of pain got so ridiculous my strongest painkiller didn't work and I had to take a second.  That helped but the downside of easing the pain is the wonderful side effects we get to suffer through.  I was drowsy and wanted to sleep, not great when you have family in and out all day to visit.

I ended up leaving my visitors sat in my garden in the sunshine while I went to bed and cried.  I hate giving in to the pain and feeling so defeated.  When the pain hits these levels though there isn't a lot I can do but suffer through it and hope that it doesn't last too long.  I am feeling a lot better this evening than I was earlier today.  Although I am drained and will be heading straight to bed as soon as I have hit publish and shut this computer down.

Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully will be much better pain wise.

Weigh In Wednesday

I love my ticker, my little jogger lady just gets closer and closer to the goal.  After last weeks 3.5lb loss I though this week would be a bit of a bust.  I know I should have more confidence in myself as I stick to what I should be having each week.  I am never hungry which is always a good thing as hunger tends to have me grabbing something quick which is never a healthy option.

So this weeks loss was 1.5lb.  I am now only 10.5lb from my first major goal of my healthy IVF weight.  I am excited to be so close to it.  When I started 68.5lb seemed like an unachievable target but now I am almost there and I can't wait to hit it as I fly past.  It looks like treatment won't start until at least October and more likely January.  Plenty of time to get this body back in shape yet.

I will be running 5K at the end of June and I can now cover the distance in about 27 and a half minutes.  To think when I started 60 seconds of running was a complete nightmare and almost killed me.  Now I love it!  How times change.

I found some photo's

From a holiday a few years ago, I say a few it was more like 6 maybe even more.  The thing is I know when these pictures were taken I was the same weight I am now.  I think I look good in the old pictures but ones J took of me today I thought were not so great.  I know I still have weight to lose and it seems that weight wants to hang around my mid section on show to the world <sigh>.

Anyway the photo's were from our holiday to Thailand.  Hopefully I will be able to upload a few (or maybe 16) of them for you all to see.  I loved it there, the people were amazing they made you feel like family.  We spent most of our evenings in an Irish bar and the local staff were some of the nicest people we have ever met while away.  It was one of those places that just sticks out in your mind, you know.

It was such a beautiful place and it was less than two years after the devastating tsunami hit there.  Believe it or not you would not have known apart from locals selling books full of photographs of the devastation and the tsunami guideline signs all along the front.

This was a game that only the locals won.  It was great fun to watch!

This young boy was so cute.

We were on a boat on the river in Bangkok when another boat passed us and I just had to get a picture shame I didn't get it all in just a little too slow.

Grand Palace, Bangkok.  If you ever find yourself in Bangkok this is one place you must visit!

The Irish Bar and staff in Patong beach, Phuket.

Patong Beach

The Beach, you know the one, they made a film there with Leonardo Dicaprio. 

This was Phi Phi beautiful, so small and if it wasn't for all us tourists a very peaceful place.

Tsunami evacuation details.

One day we may get to go back, until then I can keep looking at all the amazing photographs which trigger so many great memories!

Weigh In Wednesday

Okay so it has been another week and yet again it is late.  I swear I will get around to catching up.

As it is Wednesday I thought I would update you on my weight loss. a 3.5lb loss this week.  This means I am only 12lb away from my IVF target and then I can breathe a little easier.  Although not too easily as I would love to lose another 30lb to get to a "healthy" weight. Determination and dedication are needed as it has now been almost 11 months.  I am finding it a lot easier these days though.  I guess I have just learnt that my body doesn't actually need as much food as I once thought it did.

I am off to bed, if I have time in work tomorrow I will do my best to post and update a little more.

A busy month......

and lots to catch up on.  My weight is the same as it was 4 weeks ago which considering everything that has been going on is pretty great for me.

First it was Easter, then the following three weekends we were away first Liverpool, then Birmingham and finally Manchester.  Horse racing, Cirque du Soleil and Jeff Dunham!  Yes I know what a mix.

For tonight that is it I am sorry.  It is late (for me) and I am off to bed.  I will get my butt back in to blogging and be back very soon :)