6 months later

I know I left you all hanging so just popping in to say hello. That is assuming you are still reading!

My baby girl is now 6 months old and is doing really well. We have her consultant follow up tomorrow where I will be raising a few very small concerns. I am sure it is just my over protectiveness and she is perfectly fine but a little reassurance can only be a good thing.

I wish I was able to blog about the last 6 months but I just can't bring myself to do it. Every time I start to think about what happened I start to tear up and have to force my brain to switch off. I feel like I might just break and I am not ready to go there yet. Did anyone do the fac.eb.ook video? Mine included a picture of me holding E when she was just days old and and I sat and sobbed! It is ridiculous and even now I have tears welling in my eyes. I am considering asking my doctor about finding someone to talk to about it. I know therapy is readily available in the US but here in the UK I would not know where to begin.

Anyway enough for now, hopefully I will able to update her more often once I get past this.