In the meantime

While we wait for IVF we are giving clomid a chance.  As I use OPK's I believe I have ovulated every month although late in my cycle which then gives me a short luteal phase.  I was O on CD18/19 so with my cycle being 26/28 days it made my luteal phase only 8 - 10 days long.  As your luteal phase should be a minimum of 10 days I am seeing this as being a problem and hoping that the clomid may help rectify it.

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I was prescribed 50mg of clomid to be taken day CD3-7 for the next six months.  I have taken the first batch and I have had some side effects but nothing major.  Headaches have been the worst and I have noticed them as I don't normally suffer with headaches.  I had what I believed was ovulation pain for four or five days. The pain stopped the day after I got my positive OPK.

Ovulation was Thursday so I am just two days into my two week wait.  How do I get through the next two weeks?  I wish I had a good answer to that!  I just have to carry on as normal and try not to dwell on things too much.  Luckily this next week is quite busy.  Besides working full time, Monday I am having my haircut then going to my endo meeting, Tuesday dh and I have a date (we are going to see Pirates of the Caribbean), Wednesday I am going to see Take That in concert and then Thursday I will be halfway through these two weeks!

On the weight loss front I am 8lb's down. I am not doing brilliantly at this!  But I am going with my sister to the gym tomorrow.  I worry that if I may be in with a chance of a bfp this month I don't want to do anything strenuous that will hurt that in any way.  So I will be taking it easy but at least I will be up and active and getting my butt moving again.  Here goes nothing lets get that scale moving downwards again.

In less than two hours time.......

My dearest husband and I have our first appointment at the IVF clinic.  The forms are almost completed I just have to get J to sign the bottom of his pages and we are good to go.  I have our passports as identification and we both got new passport photos done for them to stick on our file.  This is to identify us at each appointment after today.  Makes sense really otherwise anyone could turn up as say they are us.

It is Monday which is wages day in work.  I was in the bosses office when one of our employees came up with his form for his paternity pay.  The boss asked lots of question, was it a boy or girl, what did they weigh, what have named them.  I of course said Congratulations and promptly left the room!  I fought back tears.  I am normally okay with people who I am not close to.  I guess this appointment this afternoon may be making me nervous.  Plus I am ovulating today!  Why oh why can't things just be simple and happen naturally.

Also after one week of healthy eating and a little (really little) exercise I have lost 3lb's!  I am happy with that and hopefully will get the same loss again this week.  It is hard sitting at a desk all day long although I do try to go downstairs as many times as possible throughout the eight hours I am here.  Maybe J will help me out tonight and keep me company on a walk.  The sun is shining so as long as work hasn't worn him out today I am sure he will be up for it.

I will try and update as soon as I can on how the appointment goes.  Wish me luck!

IVF appointment on Monday

That's Monday coming just six days away.  It took us so long, and a hard fight, to get on the list and now we finally have our initial appointment.  We get to find out what could possibly happen and when.  I am excited, nervous and terrified all at once.  I have googled and read information about IVF but there is so much out there and it is all so confusing.  There are so many different options IUI, ICSI, IVF and then the medications so many choices.  I wish I knew what was best for us and which medications I will be given hopefully Monday will bring at least a little clarity for us.

The one big thing that I do know is that I need to lose weight to be considered a healthy weight for the treatment to go ahead.  I need to lose at least seventy pounds and I am hoping to maybe even lose a hundred!  I went to the shop on the way home and stocked up on fruits and veggies.  I bought pomegranate seeds to try but they were disgusting.  I have also bought raspberries, strawberries, tangerines, kiwi, passion fruit, blueberries, grapes, apples and bananas.  I have yogurt (I hate yogurt but thought I would give it another go) for breakfast and I am going to add some fruit rather than having cereals.  That means less milk in my diet which the endo diet says is good.  Apparently dairy causes inflammation.

I am such a fussy eater and I know I will struggle to find a variety of foods to keep me going and not get bored.  I have made a batch of veggie soup which I will take to work tomorrow which cuts out bread.  Anyone who has suggestions for me I will really appreciate them.  I will just say though that I hate salad! I can cope with a little lettuce and cucumber but that's it.  I will eat most meats and I like potato, rice and pasta. 

I also have to work out some sort of exercise routine that will fit into my day but that won't drain me of the little energy I have.  There are only so many spoons to last any one day.  I have been making them last the past few weeks although some nights I can't wait to get in to bed.  I will have to work out some way of stretching them a little further.  If you are wondering why on earth I am going on about spoon's then read this The spoon theory . For some reason the actual website it is from isn't working so I will post that for you as well.  It is www.butyoudontlooksick.com .  Hopefully it will be back up and working soon.

So here goes the start of my weight loss to get to a healthy weight to get this IVF cycle off to a great start.  I have plenty of time thank goodness as they say from referral to start of treatment is approximately eighteen months.  Our referral date is December 3rd 2010 which means we are looking at May 2012.  You all have permission to nag me and keep on at me to get this weight off.  I need as much help and support in this as I can get.  Here's to working out what exercise I can fit in and actually achieve without causing too much pain.  Wish me luck.